Day 411

So you have to be your own teacher and your own disciple, and there is no teacher outside, no savior, no master; you yourself have to change, and therefore have to learn to observe, to know yourself. This learning about yourself is a fascinating and joyous business ~ Jiddu Krishnamurti

Today’s yoga practice was Day 5 of Yoga With Adriene’s 30 Days of Yoga Feel Alive Flow – a short but somewhat vigorous 16 minute practice that I had time to do before leaving for work this morning.

I followed it with today’s Daily Calm about guidance that today’s quote at the top of the post comes from – asking questions from within, as well as from outside (friends, family, colleagues) for guidance to life’s problems/issues – but know that a lot of the time the answer will come from within yourself.


Day 410

Be strong then, and enter into your own body; there you have a solid place for your feet ~ Kibir

This morning’s daily calm was all about grounding, noticing your solid connection to the earth , either through your feet if you’re sitting in a chair with your feet on the ground or feeling the connection of your body where it touches the ground if you are sitting on a meditation cushion. It was a reminder to connect to the Earth and imagine yourself as a tree with roots going from your feet deep into the ground and your body solid like a tree trunk to allow you to have a safe place to ground yourself when required if you become anxious or worried or scared or unstable in any way, visualizing yourself and your connection to the ground can help bring you back into your body and calm down.

Tomorrow is the due date of our first paper assignment for the yoga course that I’m taking. It is a case study on a client that has a chronic pain issue and how to deal with it answering a variety of different questions. I sent in the paper yesterday.

Today’s yoga practice was Yoga With Adriene’s calendar entry for today which was Day 19 of her Revolution series which was all about light – finding lightness and ease – quite the opposite from the daily calm meditation theme! It was a great 36 minute routine, and I couldn’t wait to get home from work today and do it because I woke up with a really sore neck and shoulders. Like each vertebrae of my cervical spine and going into the top of my thoracic spine feels like it needs popped/ adjusted some how! A very uncomfortable joint feeling. And also I’ve been experiencing sciatica like pain in my butt! Ha. A literal pain in my butt – mostly on my right side – right deep in my glute muscle that’s been irritating and bothering me all day! So stretching and moving my body, I hoped, would have helped my pains! And it has a bit.

After the video I did a bit of Homework from this weekend – we were given a worksheet and asked to do a restorative pose (like relaxation or shavasana) for 10 minutes and then write down how we felt physically (sensations), mentally (thoughts) and emotionally (feelings) and any additional observations during the practice. Mainly I felt a strange throbbing sensation in my low back/lumbar region and was curious about that and what it was….and also my thoughts drifted away alot



Day 409

Don’t take yourself too seriously. Know when to laugh at yourself, and find a way to laugh at obstacles that inevitably present themselves ~ Halle Berry

Today’s Daily Calm was about lightness, and not taking yourself or your meditation practice too seriously – it’s easy to make it too serious – focusing really hard on the breath, focusing on trying to do it, trying to stop your thoughts, berating yourself if you have thoughts etc. when really we shouldn’t be taking our daily mindfulness or meditation practice (or ourselves as Halle Berry says above!) too seriously.

Today was the start of a free 6 week online course called The Practice and Science of Yoga from the University of Arlington, TX through It’s called a MOOC – a Massive Open Online Course. It’s ‘week 0’ starting today – just to allow everyone to familiarize themselves with the EdX platform and course instructions and syllabus, and to introduce ourselves (apparently there’s 15,000 people from around the world so far signed up to take the course!). I’m looking forward to officially starting it next week – since I am just ‘auditing’ the course (taking it for free) I won’t get any sort of grade or certificate, but this is just for my own knowledge and growth. And to learn more about yoga! THe course starts with a 1 hour yoga class, and in the last week another 1 hour class, and each week has some pose demonstration videos, and short 15 minute classes, along with lectures and guest interviews etc so it should be fun!

Today’s yoga was Yoga With Adriene’s offering from the October Calendar (with the theme of Begin Again!) was Yoga For Tired Legs. It’s 6:15pm and I haven’t done it yet. But I ate dinner not that long ago and am still full, so need to digest before I do yoga!

Day 408

Our journey is about being more deeply involved in life and yet less attached to it ~ Ram Dass
Today I woke up early having gone to bed super early last night (9:30) because I was tired. I woke up just before 7, and  did two yoga videos one was an energizing morning practice by the Journey Junkie followed by the second video, after warming up and waking up the body, which was Yoga With Adriene’s new video a 17 minute Power Yoga Break weight loss video. So both worked up a little heat first thing in the morning.
Then I did the Daily Calm about non-attachment – to try and not get attached to what should be happening in your meditation practice (and in life!) Or focusing/attaching on what shouldn’t be happening – just accept it with no judgement. We did a body scan, noticing what we felt in each part of the body (or didn’t feel) and letting go of any sensation, pleasant or unpleasant we might be feeling.
I need to try and remember this in my daily life – to let things go more, not be attached and what will be, will be!
Today is the last day of this weekend’s restorative yoga training course, and it’s actually the last 3 day weekend until the very last weekend of the course at the end of November! We just have two 3 hour sessions on a couple of Wednesday nights and then the final weekend! Crazy that there isn’t much of the program left and it feels like we’re just getting started! Kind of irritating, actually. I think the course should be 100 hours instead of 80, then we’d feel more of a solid foundation of what we’ve learned instead of just the briefest introduction before a certain section ends.
Today we’re starting off with a guest speaker, a local yoga teacher (and she was a guest instructor during my yoga teacher training and one of the final exam evaluators), talking about “voices of chronic pain”, because she also has Chronic Pain. Then the rest of today will be learning more about restorative yoga and doing some more practice teaching. It’s difficult because we need to try and slow down “10% more”, and I’m a normally fast talker as it is, do really slowing down in my speech and cadence even more than I attempt to already.
The talk from the guest speaker was awesome – all about her personal experience with chronic pain after being hit by a car as a pedestrian in 2001, breaking her pelvis and fracturing her Tobias, and how she has been living with chronic pain since.
In Tianne’s class we did reclined pose and taught each other, also supported child’s pose and taught each other and also reclined forward twist, and ended with side lying relaxation (with a guided Metta meditation at the end by Tianne)
We got locked out of the studio after lunch – Including the teacher and had to call security who eventually showed up after 15 minutes! So we started class again a little late!
It’s 7pm and I’ve arrived home and I’m exhausted – mentally and physically from the weekend!
I’ll type up my notes from the weekend tomorrow and post them all on the blog soon (Including the last 2 weekends!)

Day 407

A strong, positive self-image is the best possible preparation for success ~ Joyce Brothers

This morning’s daily calm was about Courage – courage to not worry about the uncertainty of the future because nothing is uncertain. And worry about the future and what might happen stops us from taking risks! Which is not a good thing, so Mindfulness practice helps keep us present and only dealing with the no – which is really all there is!
I woke up this morning a little earlier than planned (about 15 minutes) so had plenty of time to do today’s Yoga with Adriene video which was her 17 minute Yoga for Service Industry.
Today is more restorative and also Linda is back for more Mindfulness Based Stress Relief training.
  • Today during the Restorative section we learned about stress and the central nervous system and we did a restorative shavasana session on ourselves and felt what it was like and then took turns and lead a partner through restorative shavasana with blankets, bolster and eye pillow and guided them through some belly breathing.
In the afternoon the mindfulness instructor – we discussed how our homework went over the last 2 weeks, being mindful about something for 1 minute a day, and then about what is stress, how does it evolve and we were lead through a seated sound meditation and asked to pay attention to the sounds around us, and at the end we were lead through a lying down Loving kindness meditation to help with pain – asking us to visualize a pet or something we have unconditional love for then feel that love and direct that feeling to an area of pain and melt the edges of that pain and breathe into the area. The class ended an hour early which was kind of disappointing!
Another area of irritation is the Restorative yoga teachers very quiet voice. Pretty much everyone had trouble hearing what she was saying when we first had her last night and then people also had trouble hearing her this morning when she let us through the still miss practice at the beginning of class so she put on the headset which helped a lot but people are still finding that her voice going in at out causes over lot of anxiety and also my feeling is by not hearing her we are missing out on learning things in a course that we paid a fair amount of money for!

Day 406

You cannot have a positive life and a negative mind ~ Joyce Meyer

Today’s Daily Calm was about Skillful Questioning – asking questions about Meditation practice in a positive, not negative or full of doubt way – i.e. what is the point of yoga, asked with the right intention, e.g. you really want to know what meditation is all about and why people do it, versus asking: what is the POINT of meditation?! In a defeatist/self doubting way. So asking genuine questions about meditation is important to evolve your practice.

TodayI did Yoga With Adriene’s half  hour Day 5 Rythym Practice from her Yoga Revolution series.

Tonight was the first night of restorative yoga! Well, learning about some concepts of pain and how restorative yoga helps, and different models of looking at pain like the biopsychosocial model in scientific realms and with the Kosha model in yoga Science!

The first part of the 3 hours was our last night with Maggie Reagh which was supposed to be mostly a yoga practice but she ran out of time with reviewing what we’d learned with her, and people spent even MORE time asking questions about the short paper assignment! Argh!!! So frustrating! It’s not that difficult to understand! Just choose a yoga sutra or write on the 5 koshas and apply it to your life! Not rocket science! Okay, deep breaths, move on… so in the end we only had about 15 or 20 minutes so she lead us through a short supine practice with dead bug and lying on a bolster on our spine and then lead us through a guided relaxation meditation. And we filled out evaluation forms for her course.

Tianne, the Restorative yoga teacher lead us through a Kosha scan at the end of class, taking us about 10 minutes over. But that’s okay because it was basically a guided shavasana.

Day 405

Keep your face to the sunshine and you cannot see a shadow ~ Helen Keller

I am sick! I felt not too bad yesterday during the work day but then all of a sudden last night around 7:30 p.m. I all of a sudden felt awful I felt all light-headed and woozy and I was sneezing and sniffly… So I ended up going to bed last night at 8:30. I’ve taken today off work to rest and try and get as well as I can because this weekend is yet another full weekend of my yoga teacher training for the restorative yoga program so I can’t afford to not be feeling well! Class starts tomorrow night Friday at 6 p.m. to 9 p.m. and this is the weekend we actually start a restorative yoga portion of the course! So I don’t want to miss out on any of that by not being close to feeling 100%, so I can give it all my attention and focus.

Sadly I wish a jeweled at work to teach my yoga class today and I had also planned to do a yoga class just before mine taught by a teacher that I’ve taken a few classes with outside in the summertime and I really like her style so I was really looking forward to taking her class today and also teaching my own class afterwards. I always feel bad when I have to cancel a class because I don’t like to let my students down. but I am sure people would rather I not get them sick! My co-workers and my yoga students included. So when I woke up this morning the first thing I did was I made some golden milk which is milk with turmeric powder cinnamon black pepper and a slice of fresh ginger all blended together – it’s basically a health drink and the tumeric is good for boosting your immunity as well as various other things, and then I nourished myself with a nice bowl of plain oatmeal with a dash of cinnamon and some banana.

Because I want to kick this cold in the but I decided to do Brett Larkins half hour Yoga for Sickness, Stress, Cold or Flu. And it was manageable, and for the most part nice and gentle and on the ground. I could handle it anyways! And I felt better afterwards.

Then I finally got around to doing my daily calm meditation today which was all about trying not to feel a certain way during practice not to try and feel, more relaxed or force a certain feeling or get upset if you aren’t experiencing a certain feeling. We were reminded that the point of meditation is not to feel calm or relaxed but to focus on the breath in order to stay in the present moment and if we are getting ourselves worked up or upset that we aren’t meditating right or worrying that we aren’t feeling relaxed enough or, enough then we aren’t being in the present moment.

I’m adding to this post at 7:30 at night having just finished Yoga With Adriene’s half an hour Balancing Flow video that I missed doing yesterday.

I decided to do it to help me digest or help get rid of the in digestion that I have since I had dinner and then I went for a nap. But earlier this afternoon about 3 I also decided to do Yoga for Teachers which is today’s Yoga with Adriene video. So all-in-all I have done an hour and a half of yoga today which I think has really helped me and my cold because it’s kept me moving and flowing an active and helping to boost my energetic system.